Finding My Way
|Big city, bigger goals, the biggest heart.|
In exactly one month, I will have been in Los Angeles for an entire year. It's amazing how quickly time passes. I remember being asked if I was scared to move 3,000 miles from home & how I felt about starting a new life in a completely new place. My answer hasn't shifted. Though nervous, I've always been excited about life & the beauty in knowing that I get to create my own paths & journeys. It's been a literal dream to live & experience all that I have thus far. I seriously cannot thank God enough for the opportunities I've been given.
I'd like to believe that I'm a pretty decisive person, but in retrospect, I might actually be the complete opposite. Initially, I wanted to go to college out of state so I could experience life outside of Baltimore, Maryland. When I decided to stay in-state for school, I vowed to move to New York as soon as I graduated. New York housed the university I originally wanted to attend, & since I wasn't going to spend "the best four years of my life" there, I figured I'd move anyway to experience the city & all it's wonders.
Fast forward to junior year of school...which, if you've been to college can probably agree is the equivalent of junior year in high school...stressful. I'm not sure what switch turned on for me, but all of a sudden, my heart was set on moving to California. It's like New York was never a consideration. I must say, this has been one of the best decisions I've ever made for myself.
Ever.
Like I stated above, I had a lot of people question my move from home. Was I sure? What was my plan? How do I know this is what I want? What will I do? Am I going to go back to school?
Let me keep it real with y'all, per usual.
I had little idea.
I was nervous for change.
I was unsure what to expect.
I was not positive this was the right move.
but through all of that doubt, I trusted.
After I got in an accident two years ago, my faith & belief that I serve an Almighty God was strengthened more than ever. I say that to say, that though I had doubts & I could feel a lot of people's concerns for me, I trusted God & knew He wasn't steering me in the wrong direction. I've said it once, & I will shout it again,
it's never a coincidence when something is placed on your heart.
If you feel that you should, do it.
If you feel that it's the right choice, do it.
If you feel that it's going to propel you...DO IT.
No one is going to live your life as well as you will.
That saying you hear all the time...."Trust the process." well, I do. & this is how I maneuver through life & how I am able to consistently find my way through the jungle of it all. I'm not saying it's easy, & I am not saying that every day is rainbows & butterflies because trust me. I have a lot of days that aren't rainbows & butterflies, but cloudy & sluggish. But, what I'm ultimately saying is what I say all the time.
Trust yourself.
Trust yourself enough to know that you will create the path that is perfect for you.
Trust yourself enough to know that if you make a wrong turn, you can still recover & get back on track.
Trust yourself enough to know that your life is capable of having incredible blessings...& that you are worthy of those blessings.
I cannot speak for everyone because everyone's life is different. But, the best advice I have for any young adult trying to find their way in life is to take the leap, trust yourself, & know that even if you fall & it doesn't turn out how you want it to, you have the opportunity to try again.
Because that's the beauty of life.
You have opportunity.
You have a chance.
You have you.
Don't take 'no' for an answer. Don't think that if it doesn't work out for you, it never will. Don't give up on yourself. Keep pushing until you see results & keep believing that the life you envision for yourself is obtainable.
because it is.
keep trusting.
May your day be ever filled with love, light, and of course, an abundance of chicken tenders💜🌻✨
Cheyenne Pajardo