Be You. Always.
We apologize a lot for being ourselves. It's sometimes subconscious, other times we're trying to please a person or persons & think that if we change just one thing, we'll be liked & accepted more. If you've never felt this way, I'm calling your bull because I'm more than positive it's a part of life. A lot of people experience the feeling in adolescent years, but I'm sure others have experienced it as young adults or quite possibly as an adult. My point is...
we have all been there.
I'm not 100% sure why we feel the need to change pieces of ourselves, or why we feel the need to rush past a part of our lives. I guess that's also human nature, & it's almost innate that we want things to happen in our own time. I mean, who knows us better than we know ourselves?
The truth is, though.
We need more patience.
We need to understand that timing is everything, & while we might feel as though we know the trajectory of our lives, we often don't know it in its entirety. Our timing might not be the universe's timing, & we have to accept that for what it is. It’s hard, I know. Putting our lives in the hands of the universe? Psh. Oooookay.
But we have to. Why? Because our lives have been written since the day we were conceived; & while we are the authors & have free will & choice, the general outline is there. It’s just our job to fill in the blanks & spaces.
I’ve realized that it’s hard to trust in something that we don’t necessarily see. It’s easy to say that it’s nonexistent, so there's no point in believing. But, for me, belief & faith is what pushes me towards the future & my end-game. I have too much hope & faith in knowing that my future is secure because it's already been destined.
As has yours.
Though I am being specific in saying I have belief & faith in my future, as well as faith in the universe, I want to note that I have faith in myself...& I want the same for you. You are far more capable of accomplishing & fulfilling anything you set your mind to. You have everything you need within yourself. You just need to trust. Trust you. Trust the process. Trust that it's going to work itself out in the end.
You know, I had a really hard time at the beginning of elementary school with reading, reading comprehension, & writing. I struggled with following along, & when asked to read aloud, I think I nearly cried every time because my reading was choppy & not as fluid as my peers. The thought of reading for fun was a foreign concept; I lived for the moment summer rolled around & reading wasn't necessarily a priority. I was 8 when I had my first tutor, & though i dreaded sessions with her, they grew on me & resulted in my love for words & literature.
I'm always amazed with the way life works--one change in your script & your entire life is altered. I'm a firm believer that everything happens when & how it's supposed to. If it weren't for my tutor, Ms. Kelly Glore, ya girl wouldn't be on her way to becoming your favorite author. So, I say all this to say...there is nothing wrong with you. There is nothing wrong with the pace of your progression. There is nothing wrong with your dreams or your hopes or your desires. Have patience, & know that it's going to work out in your favor.
You are the most imperfectly, perfect human being that you could ever possibly be.
So, be you. All way. Always.
May your day be ever filled with love, light, and of course, an abundance of chicken tenders💜🌻✨
Cheyenne Pajardo